Saturday, June 12, 2010

this is just where I'm at...


why am I still awake? life is too tired for me to ponder tonight...or maybe it's just me that's tired and life that's wide awake. too many brain things going on inside my head today...I'll truly never understand the minds of other people...those who don't think the way I do about things. why do they think the way they do? why are things that are repugnant to me alright in their minds?what makes right RIGHT and wrong WRONG...where is the line? why do some feel the need to hurt without considering the repercussions in others lives? a ripple becomes a wave by the time it reaches the edge of the pond...actions by one can affect all...is that too much power over another person? I'm rambling...but spilling...so necessary to clear the cobwebs. tired...yet my brain keeps running...to catch up to those whose brains are fast and furious, weak and wicked...do I want to catch up? do I want to find the devil's playground in the will of those I thought I knew but don't know at all? illusion is a strange friend. do I have the strength to face those demons tonight?? I'll have to go lay on my face a while and let God deal with it...
that's all I have left...
sorry for the ramble...pray for hurt friends...pray for gossipers within our own church family who hurt them with untruths...pray that I can be a help in time of uncertainty.
TTFN,

5 comments:

Mama4Real said...

Praying for you friend, I think I understand sort of where you are. Praying that His mercies for you are new this morning!!!

Konnie said...

Thank you for being my Best Friend!
I love you!

He & Me + 3 said...

I hear you. Some people's actions and thoughts are do difficult to understand..and yet we are called to love them. As hard as it is. & believe me it is hard to love some people.
Hoping that you found some peace and sleep.
Hugs,
Mimi
Missing you!

{Kimber} said...

praying for you girlie

bluecottonmemory said...

I so understand - why can people hurt and not have repercussions (like a slap on the hand) but if you find yourself hurt by their actions - then you are the bad guy because you just didn't shut up and take it!

The line, "me that's tired and life that's wide awake" - that is one of the best lines I've ever!